JUS WRITING.....

ITS BEEN ALMOST A YEAR SINCE I'VE HEARD HER VOICE SEEN HER LAUGH.
I REMEMBER WHEN I WAS YOUNGER I'D SPEND MY WHOLE SUMMER WITH HER.
AT NIGHT WE WOULD SIT AROUND HER BED.
SHE'D PRAY ND SING US A SONG. THEN WE WOULD JOKE FOR A WHILE.
IN THE MORNING SHE'D MAKE US THE BEST BREAKFAST.
THEN SHE'D GET A BIG BOWL OF FROOT LOOPS. LOL.
THAT WAS HER FAVORITE CEREAL.
SHE KNEW HOW TO HIDE HER PAIN.
SHE NEVER LET US KNOW JUS HOW BAD THINGS WERE.
I GUESS SHE DIDN'T WANT US TO WORRY.
I SHOULD HAVE KNOW THAT DAY SHE CAME HOME WITH A WHITE TUBE
HANGING OUT OF HER CHEST.
RIGHT IN HER HEART.
SHE TAUGHT US HOW TO PUT THE MEDICINE IN IT.
WE HAD TO MAKE SURE NO AIR BUBBLES WENT IN.
I ASKED HER WHAT WOULD HAPPEN IF IT DID.
SHE TOLD ME  SHE'D DIE. THAT SCARED ME. I DIDNT WANNA DO IT.
BUT SHE SAID SHE WANTED ME TO LEARN HOW TO DO IT JUS IN CASE SHE EVER
NEEDED ME TO DO IT FOR HER. SHE WANTED ME TO KNO
HOW TO TAKE CARE OF  HER. SO I DID IT. SHE HELPED ME.
I WILL NEVER FORGET THAT DAY.
THATS THE DAY ME, DES, ND AMBER TOLD HER WE WOULD FIND THE CURE.
I CAN STILL SEE THE SMILE ON HER FACE.
SHE BELIEVED IN US.
SHE GAVE US WORDS ENCOURAGEMENT.
MADE US FEEL LIKE WE COULD REALLY DO IT.
I WONDER IF SHE KNEW SHE WOULDNT BE HERE LONG ENOUGH TO SEE US DO IT.
I ALWAYS SEE HER GO INTO THE HOSPITAL ND COME RIGHT BACK HOME.
I WAS USE TO THAT. IT HAPPENED ALL THE TIME SO I NEVER WORRIED.
THERE WAS A POINT WHEN I GOT A LITTLE SCARED,
BUT SHE HAD A WAY OF CALMING UR FEARS WITH A SMILE OR LAUGH.
I LOOK BACK ON EVERYTHING ND WISH I WOULD HAVE TOOK ADAVANTAGE
OF MY TIME WITH HER.
I HAVE A LOT OF MEMORIES WITH HER BUT I WISH I HAD MORE.
AS I GOT OLDER AND STARTED WORKING, SHE WOULD ALWAYS SAY
"ERIC B,(I LOVED WHEN SHE CALLED ME THAT) U DON'T COME SEE ME ANYMORE"
I WAS SO WRAPPED UP IN WORK. I NEVER REALLY MADE TIME TO GO SEE HER
BUT I THOUGHT SHE WOULD ALWAYS BE THERE. I TOOK HER FOR GRANTED.
I REMEMBER THE VERY LAST TIME I SPOKE TO HER.
I STAYED THE WEEKEND AT HER HOUSE WITH MY CUZINS.
SHE WAS IN THE HOSPITAL. SHE'D BEEN THERE FOR OVER A MONTH.
IT FELT WEIRD NOT HAVING HER IN THE HOUSE.
SO AMBER CALLED HER.
WHEN I SPOKE TO HER SHE SOUNDED SOOOOO TIRED.
IT STILL HADN'T DAWNED ON ME.
I WAS JUS SO HAPPY TO HEAR HER VOICE.
WE TALKED FOR A FEW MINUTES.
MY LAST WORDS TO HER WERE "I LOVE YOU AUNT TERESA"
SOMETHING I RARELY SAID. BUT THANK GOD I SAID IT THAT DAY
BECAUSE NO MORE THAN A WEEK LATER SHE WAS GONE.
WITHOUT WARNING.
WHO KNEW THAT WOULD BE LMY LAST TIME SPEAKIN TO HER,
SEEING HER FACE, HER SMILE, HEARING HER LAUGH ND SING, OR
HER COUNTRY ACCENT. LOL.
ATLEAST SHE LEFT THIS WORLD KNOWING THAT I LOVED HER.
I MISS HER SO MUCH.
I WOULD GIVE ANYTHING JUS TO SEE HER SMILE
ND HEAR HER VOICE ONE MORE TIME
         I LOVE YOU AUNT TERESA

.........SINCERELY, ME